Keep your secrets secret, something I have always believed was terribly true with regards to my interpersonal relationships. In the past week, I have watched so many terrible things happen and come to interesting conclusions about many aspects of my life, but today -- it all came together and I realized something profound: keep less secrets.
Secrets have led to me having multiple human beings inside of me. At school I am a bit of a disaster who does bad things; at home I am an angel who knows nothing of those things. Everyone knew I loved him except him. He didn't realize to the degree that I was moving forward. What I told some, I told others differently. Secrets lead to a polarization of personalities.
The polarization will rip you apart if the sides ever learn of one another. I cannot keep them from each other any longer because that is self-blackmail. It limits my potential. This is my chance to reinvent myself, to rise from the ashes like a phoenix.
The solution is simple; simpler than I knew or thought it could be. I must both expose both sides to one another before they destroy one another. By merging the two I can create a clear picture of who I am and what I want to be.
So I have decided to tell the truth and live the lie.
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